These thoughts that keep on hammering into my head every day just scare me, and I keep on blabbing my friends full of the same topic, the one that I'm trying to distance myself from as good as possible.
Distraction doesn't really help, I've tried and I'm constantly trying to get my mind on other things. I'm only overstraining myself though, and I'm still thinking about the same things over and over again. I've been so frightened of laying in bed awake in the evenings and just having all those spinning thoughts in mind that I'm trying to banish, therefore I've been going to bed no earlier than two in the morning, so I'd fall exhausted into bed, giving me no time to think... which does affect my school performance. Well, it can't get any worse than this, so I guess the only way is up.
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